there is beauty in the breaking

so im kinda nervous / scared/ excited about quitting band.
im nervous about telling mr wiggins
scared that im going to miss it
and excited that i can enjoy other things in my life.
you would think it wouldnt be a big deal
but when youve been apart of something
and its become apart of your life
its hard to quit.
but anyways tomorrow im going to apply at Babes...
i really hope i get that job!
i miss my brother a lot!
this Christmas will be the first Christmas
without him.
its going to be hard...
this song , written my lindsey haun,
kinda explains what im feeling right now.

"wake up to a sunny day
not a cloud up in the sky
but then it starts to rain
my defenses hit the ground
and they shatter all around
so open and exposed
i found strength in the struggle
face to face with my troubles
when your broken
in a million little pieces and your
trying but you cant hold on anymore
every tear falls down for a reason
dont just stop believeing in yourself
when your broken
little girl dont be so blue
i know what your going through
dont let it beat you up
hitting walls and getting scars
only makes you who you are
no matter how much your heart
is aching there is beauty in the breaking"
- lindsey haun

inspired

getting up and getting out
today tomorrow
growing up and down
now were coming to
moving in moving out
applying myself
growing meeting learning loving
just some stuff on my mind.
hes my best friend
i miss how everything used to be.
hiding behind pillars
making fun of the school secretary
leaving me without telling me ha
laughing, fighting, loving, hating
i miss him like i never thought i could
hes my best friend
hes my brother.